Why do we let ourselves get our feelings hurt? I mean we choose to feel this way right? We have decide how we feel when it comes to situations, yet we manage to get ourselves into ruts and negative thinking. I know that when I get into a negative rut, nothing seems to help. I can talk to everyone till I am blue in the face, and I may feel somewhat better, but it's only temporary. I get more mad at myself than anything else, because I am smart enough to know better and yet I don't listen to myself! I guess you could say that I am my own worst enemy. Is it too much to ask to be liked by someone you care about? It seems like it is. Especially when you care and they don't. I think caring for people is easy to do and sometimes I wish that I just didn't care so much. I think we just want to make thing harder for ourselves and each other sometimes. It creates the entertainment that we crave in our bored every day lives. Who doesn't want something to talk about? Good, Bad, or netrual. IDK I really need to toughen up if I want to win any battles. I will not let my feelings take me hostage all the time! Nor will I accept defeat! If something is worth fighting for than I want to win gosh darn it!!!! For now I must just retreat and find distractions. Apparently if I want to win this battle I must regroup and retreat from the situation entierely with no more false pretenses of doing so.
uuuuuuuuggggggghhhhh!!!!! WHATEVER! :( frowny face umbrella!
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