Feelings!!!!!

Why do we let ourselves get our feelings hurt? I mean we choose to feel this way right? We have decide how we feel when it comes to situations, yet we manage to get ourselves into ruts and negative thinking. I know that when I get into a negative rut, nothing seems to help. I can talk to everyone till I am blue in the face, and I may feel somewhat better, but it's only temporary. I get more mad at myself than anything else, because I am smart enough to know better and yet I don't listen to myself! I guess you could say that I am my own worst enemy. Is it too much to ask to be liked by someone you care about? It seems like it is. Especially when you care and they don't. I think caring for people is easy to do and sometimes I wish that I just didn't care so much. I think we just want to make thing harder for ourselves and each other sometimes. It creates the entertainment that we crave in our bored every day lives. Who doesn't want something to talk about? Good, Bad, or netrual. IDK I really need to toughen up if I want to win any battles. I will not let my feelings take me hostage all the time! Nor will I accept defeat! If something is worth fighting for than I want to win gosh darn it!!!! For now I must just retreat and find distractions. Apparently if I want to win this battle I must regroup and retreat from the situation entierely with no more false pretenses of doing so.
uuuuuuuuggggggghhhhh!!!!! WHATEVER! :( frowny face umbrella!

8 days a week...

I just got done working 8 days in a row...Finally have a day off but I am back tomorrow. At least it's a 4hr shift and not an 8hr one. Man I am so tired today. Sleepy tired too, which is weird for me, because I don't usually feel tired like that. Luckily I will most likely not have to suffer though a long stint like that again for ahwile. Things are looking up more or less on other fronts. Previously I have been having issues with a coworker being a real jerk, but he has cooled off a lot since then and has finally started acting a little bit more normal. I just don't like contension, that bothers me a lot. I am rarely at odds with anyone, and don't like to fight, so this whole issue really bothered me a lot, especially since this was someone that I had thought I had become friends with. Oh well lessons have been learned...
Tonight I am going over to my friends house to watch Supernautal! YAY! I love that show! It's pretty much the only show I watch these days. Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles are really great actors :) I can't get enough of those handsome guys ;)
I just looked at the clock and realized it was already after 4pm! My body still feels like it 9am Bleh! It's too late to take a decent nap B4 I go away, so I will just have to try to wake myself up a bit.
Incoherent blogging time now. Which actually isn't becuase I relally am just so tired that I can't even think of anything intersting to say. So, I will go now.
THE CAKE IS A LIE!

Yes It Is The Same Day

It's evening time now. I have two more days of work till I get my next day off. Blah, my back and my legs are very tired, and yet my mind wants to stay awake. I am watching my brother play Beetles Rockband. I am too tired to play, otherwise I would gladly join in the game playing.

So the grouchy "Doughnut Lady" showed up today. she is almost ALWAYS getting miffed at us about not having the doughnuts she wants, and insists that we bake her up two of them just for her! It's not like we don't have anything else to do! I always tell my coworker "Elivs" that I hope I am as nice as that lady when I get old. Speaking of coworkers, I work with a lot of intersting personalites. I think my next blog will dedicated to them and their oddities. Of course I am not going to ever call anyone by their real names, just in case any of them end up reading this or something...

The End till next time :)

Is It Morning Again?

I am up earily this morning alot like every morning. My Mother exercises every morning on a squeeky eliptical walker at 6:45 every morning. Its hard to sleep when this is going on mostly because ot the squeek.

Well latley I have been having trouble sleeping, and this morning my back is really sore. Work has not been helping etiher! Today is my sixth day in a row and I still have two more days after that. Not to mention I only get to have one day off this week as well. Ugh for the long hours one week, and then the bare minimum the next.

Now, I don't HATE my job, it can just be stressful for me sometimes. I work in a supermarket bakery, on the closer shift part-time. The people I work with are great :) Sometimes...There is also alot of turnover, and a lot of drama! You wouldn't think there would be so much drama in a supermaket until you have worked there. Maybe some other time I shall share some of my drama's (with name changes of course)

Well, thats all for my post today. I have come to the conclusion that blogging is kinda fun! I really don't want to get up, but I think I will wander into the kitchen soon and try to find some breakfast :) Perhaps something with bacon mmmmm! Bacon is heaven!

Blog #1

Today I decided to write a blog. Why? IDK? I just randomly decided that I wanted to put my thoughts somewhere I could find them again. That said, I never thought of myself to be the type to blog. I sort of think that people blog thinking that people are actually going to care what they say or think, but who actually follows random ppls blogs anyhow? You know I have seveal friends who are known to blog, and yet I don't really read them either. What does BLOG mean anyhow what does the B stand for? Log means that you are keeping a track of information about something, but what does B mean? Okay, This post is my fist one and sort of a test to see how this blog stuff works. If it does work, then you can guarrante that I will be writing lots more, and be warned I will most likey also become more random as well. *Thumbs up"*