The Day after Chrsitmas

Happy Boxing Day! Don't ask me what Boxing Day is, becasue I always forget what it is and end up having to ask someone about it myself. All I know is that it is some other holiday which was made up as an excuse to celebrate Chritmas longer I guess lol!

Anyway, I am home from work and am getting ready to go see the new Shelock Holmes movie. It looks like it might be good, but I don't really like Robert Downing Jr. or Jude Law very much, so we shall see.

The store was pretty dead today. Probably becasue everyone is still celebrating the holiday. It is nice to have a more realxed pace at the moment. There might be a small crowd later on this week for the new year celebrations, but other than that I will be able to chill out for a bit.
IDK why I am wrting a blog... no one reads it, and I don't really say anything too interesting...
Maybe if I had more interesting things to say, I might be more inspired to write more. Or if I knew that anyone even cared what I had to say that would make a difference lol!

Right now though all I can really think of is how doomed some of my relationships with people have been recently, and get into a downright emo funk about it, and I don't need that right now. I need more positvie energy! I have been in this negative hole of a mood for sevral months, and I need to dig myself out! Nothing is majorly wrong, its just seems like there is perpetually nothing right! Kinda like the glass is neither half full nor half empty...Stuck in the middle...In the inbetween...but where do I start? How do I get out...Any ideas???
Oh well, this is my blog so I guess I can do whatever I want with it. I am very creative, so I know I will come up with something eventually :)

Till next time,
Happy Boxing Day!!!!

Merry Christmas!!!

So its that time of the year again. Usually I get really excited for Christmas, but it seems to have lost some of its charm when working in a supermarket. Work has been getting me down, and people are just so out of wack during this time of year, and they easily forgets the importance of what really matters. I will not let Christmas be ruined by all that though...I am so thankful for my friends and family. They are really great, and I have much love in my heart for them! I hope Christmas will be a happy time of the year for everyone, even the people who don't really care for holidays. I cant believe that the end of the year has come up so fast. I also hope that this will be a better year this year, and that I can get many things sorted out. I have a lot to accomplish and I just need to get motivated to do it...I have learned a lot this year, and I have become more outgoing than I used to. I hope that I will continue to gain more confidence, and be able to show that through my words and actions. Anyway I really dont have much to say otherwise I shall write more when I have more time.

I am a marshmallow

So I am all well again! 7 weeks of a broken ankle and I am now back to work and on the mend. I am glad to be working again for the most part, but some of it isn't that great. There is still a great deal of drama at the store. You would think that being away would be helpful, and it was, but at the same time it brought up a whole lot of other things back up that I wish would stay gone. I just can never leave anything alone and that is my downfall. I try to save things that just dont work! I am not going to go into it very much because it upsets me and makes me so mad! All I know is I will not be blamed for others actions anymore! Its not fair that I have to be dragged in the mud while other can go on having a good time. I just want to be accepted and understood...Is that so much to ask? Is it so much to ask to be loved and cared about? It is a new month and I need to keep my new outlook. I WILL not revert to my old way of thinking about things, and now I need new ways to approach situations. I need to take better care of myself first and foremost and that is what I am going to do. The title of this blog is I am a marshmallow, because one of my coworkers calls me that because I am too soft lol!